Life is never a cake walk...you can not pick and choose what you want... For me, geeting the simplets of things has been an endeavour. I guess everything that has happened has left me sad...I dont know and I cant say but I feel terrible today... No I dont think its a matter of self pity... but yes... perhaps somewhere when i probe myself and push my self to express as to what has gone wrong with me... I guess the simple theory of supply and demand is the factor... What I demand from life is never supplies... hehe... but yeah... some people are born lucky... so am I... If I think, I have all the materialistic things I could demand for...Why is then that I feel sad always? Its fine... Its perhaps nature's play of tweaking around my thoughts and bloody weel making me feel what I feel today....
The only thing that I have always hated is telling lies...Perhaps because this is what that ruined my childhood... pop and mom were separated and I was left with nobody until Mitun came....then this lies again... a relationship screwed up and now lies again... am I at fault or is it that I take trivial matters too harshly on me....
Well... I think its a mood swing over now... emerged as a winner against my bouts of loneliness... now I have to shut all emotions, back to the emotionless me that was there 4 months back and see the world in a different perspective.....
Adieu...
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