Love and doubt have never been on speaking terms.

wait until my projects over.... :( wtf!!! Phew!!! Hmm??? MY BLOG...... crapp.... when in doubt do wateva!!!! Fk off the wrld... n say to hell!!!!

Not too linguistic tday bt off to wrk gain.... my sms lingo at blogs too... Whoa!!!!

So yeah!! Finally... I oblige the net with my not so thin fingers that I decide to complete this thought in a proper not the sms lingo. Yeah... it is rightly said Love and doubt do not speak to each other... so true...If I doubt a thought, I forget that this was the that brought the smile on my lips... and what is more beautiful than a simple smile... I remember my piano teacher teaching me in the first class in my prep...it isnt any trouble just to SMILE (as in the words)... smile when you are in trouble it will vanish like a bubble if u only take the trouble just to smile...
Indeed a beautiful thought!!! Finally!!! My depression is over!!! Ahhh.... sigh!!! what a relief.... m glad that I am no longer sad... for what is mine is mine...and what was never mine..would never be mine how much I cry ofr it...A hard fact that is now imprinted in my heart...

I have no reason to live...I have left everything that I once loved and things that made me happy....
I want to meet my kids now...Once I am done with it.... I dont know if I plan to return ...back to where I am... I am going to the hills... the time has come....
The worldly things have left me hurt and bruised and never once have they made me happy...they say that I myself dont know how to be happy.. but the fail to read through this that the wound is still open and it still pains a lot.... no matter how deeply i involve myself in anything.... they say search for what trauma means.... does that not imply to me???? And I cant ask this either cause I am asked to just understand... whether I accept it or not....
Why???Because they know the truth is worse than trauma....
I hope to come out of the pain... I wish I can... its troubling me badly...I remember how madly in love I was with life... I loved every minute of it... and was scared of the thought that one day I would die... nothing could change my feelings....and now i hate myself for the fact that I am such a sad soul....I can not even tell this to anybody because people interpret this in the way they want to...I just cant stop my tears.... If I knew what was the reason behind this sadness, I would have overcome this.... but I dont know myself...Its high time and I need to take a control over my life....and be positive... as in my blood group...

I have to move on.... move to the place that i belong....and if u question me any further... uve had the time of ur life....I swear!!!!