From today on, begins my journey of thinking. Not that I haven’t thought of anything before! I perceive I have been quite manipulative in the process of thinking what has been righteously right, the so very right for me. Not really judgmental I’d say. I have been a true blend of the Indian and the Western mindset to develop a framework for my life that would enable me to proceed further down the line making my misgivings really not very imperative in nature. I think I have been too operational in the way I plan to work around it!
I shouldn’t! Of course this happens to be my blog, the very moment I say “MY”, I mean it. And need I question the kind of thoughts I write? Not that they portray the real me! I really wouldn’t like a mirror reflecting me that too on the web! A horrible idea. All said and done, one’s life is full of happiness but surely there are those cobwebs hanging around that make certain parts of one’s life incredibly meant for privacy! I hate when somebody tries to invade it!
So yes! I wanted to talk more to myself about what I feel was the reason for a person’s existence, apart from the biological ones. Is there really a cycle of life that evolves? I mean is there really a soul that exists which is so called universal in nature. If so, how many have felt it? I have really been feeling it since I understood the meaning of life. It has always been guiding me through most of my decisions and steps in life. And now that I am writing tonight, at 11 o clock in the night, which by far for most of us is equal to a mid day, I just can’t stop my fingers. It is as if something is making me write. This force is telling me that I have been saved from a disaster that was supposed to occur with me that could have virtually wiped off the traces of my existence. Even now, that my back is aching terribly and I can’t bend, I just am so enthusiastic to talk about it! It has been an experience. I saw death and I just survived.
It is this universal force which has been capable of setting the fundamentals of my dream materialize. I see this force in anything that is pure and divine. It could be in innocent eyes that unasked question you for so many things. It could be the smile that said more than any word could. It is every where. It is like pure love that unleashes itself when divinity wants it to. It is all around us. It is just that we have many blindfolds which opened can make this world so beautiful and worthy to live for.
There are innumerous materialistic and non materialistic objects that have been desired by the human race. What does one desire for? I asked many people- some said money, name, fame, position in the society, happy family. There were none who said mental peace. Though none had it! Imagine! Of course everybody desires for recognition and needs money to survive. I had the same sleep when I earned measly and slept the same way when I earned the most in my life. But the best sleep was when I was a kid. Yes. And now you have so many so called rational thinking rising. You’d just say what nonsense! Were you as loaded with responsibilities as you are today? I’d say no. But yes at every stage of human life, there are certain levels of responsibilities assigned, the magnitude is what that differs!
Alright! Pause for a minute! Close your eyes. Think of the moments that have really made you happy! Those are the real moments that leave you hurt!! Don’t they? If they don’t, I hope they do never, but they certainly do! For me ….here begins the viscious cycle! For me, my happiness again became slave to the reignes of materialism or desires! I again forgot that these are very subprime desires. The prime goal is to be in tandem with the universal soul. So time to stop now!
For those of you, who know me and are reading this, do not question me just to mock at this thought. Reason- simple. This is celebrating life. And I am going to celebrate my life the way I want to. I do not want any hindrance now on! Very clear I guess.
This is what is metamorphism or evolution of true rationality in behavior! I guess I am trying to be pretty rational but yes, I do falter - courtesy destiny.
Yes! I wanted to talk more about my intuitions. These are really developing too much! And I am silently enjoying it. I am happy to be an Aquarian, very imaginative. And now…. I am really sleepy! The same life. A year back I thought were my golden days! I think I was sadly mistaken…. I just don’t want to talk again of how badly bruised I have been feeling. No! This isn’t self pity. Somewhere…Papa, mummy and my kids… I need you all…..no sentiments now!
Hope to find time to write again. And yes, all comments approved by me! Can’t write on research findings….company would fire me. And I can’t copy paste from Booz Hamilton, MCKC or PWC… all the more bugging!!!!
So…. Trends in my life gotta be far more interesting! Cause this philosophical me is just a part of me… I am not really that serious. It is just my brain that wants to measure its capacity with the outcome. I hardly can see anything….. Gud nyt Shruti… Gud nyt to me….Gud nyt my kids….Love u….
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